Sunday, 22 June 2008

Some people

This weekend I learnt how pathetic people can be.

I don't want to go into this too much, because I don't want to make out like I give a shit about a few certain people's opinions. Their actions do bother me though, if you don't like the fact that I make video blogs then don't watch them. That's fine by me, I absolutely understand that not everyone likes that sorta do. But, may I point out, SOME PEOPLE DO! So why sit there saying "blah blah you're a cunt for posting this video" when you can just ignore the fact that it exists and get on with your day?

There a are a few people (some of whom I have always respected in their own way) who have treated me like shit for a very long time. But, I've decided that by letting this go on any longer I'm letting myself be walked over by whoever wants to. It makes me a weaker person and generally a tool. I wouldn't accept it from anyone else in my life, so me being used to these actions doesn't make it any more excusable for you.

Youtube, and in fact the whole internet, is based on the ability to voice your opinions to the world. Do you go onto forums of things you're not keen on just to ask them if they were "starved of oxygen at birth"? No, because you respect other people's opinions, except mine.

If you don't like who I am then that's fine, but I won't put up with it being shoved in my face every five minutes. Get along with me or leave me alone.

Thanks :)

Tuesday, 17 June 2008

Absence makes the heart...

Wowzers! It's been ages since I made a new post, so here's a little catch up!

Ive decided to make myself a little more world-wide-known over the coming months with a nice little video blog I've started on youtube :D

I'll be making lots of lovely little videos every week with little insights from me.

The novel has finally started up again - started a new chapter called "Broken Unity" - section of it coming soon, I promise!!

Here's a new episode of Reno's Moans! (Please head to and subscribe!!)

Thursday, 5 June 2008

Living in the past

God i miss the old days.
I mean, uni is fun and all, but that one summer before everything changed plays on my mind so much. I'm talking about the summer of 2004 - undoubtedly the best summer of my life.

Let me paint a picture for you.

The summer began with GCSE results, the night before results day Lito (my girlfriend, first love) came to stay with me. We had watched a DVD, had something to eat and just had a lovely evening. Then we went to bed, the next morning mum woke us up to a blazing sunny AM and a hastened drive down to the high school. Mum was so supportive, I loved it because she was so keen to know how well me and Lito had both done, she really is a great Mum. She waited in the hallway while me and Lito (along with a lot of other nervous kids) went into the main hall for our results. I was happy with my results, thought none were above a C, but I got into college and that's all that mattered. Lito got her grades and began to cry because of how well she did, I was so proud of her, being the one to comfort her was something that made me feel so important in this amazing person's life. I really was head-over-heels in love those days, I'd do anything to get that feeling back. Anyway, after we got our results and Lito had stopped crying, we found my best mate Tom and told Mum we were going to walk home instead of getting a lift. We walked and chatted about the future, it was so relaxed and fun - not a care in the world. We went into the Angel pub where I worked and chatted to the cleaner Janice (she could talk for Britain) and then carried on home. At lunch time Mum took me, Lito and Tom out for lunch at Frankie and Bennies, such a lovely lunch and atmosphere, again Mum was the best person in the world and paid for the whole thing then took us shopping.

The days after that aren't really rememberable in specifics, but as soon as the holidays were in swing and we hit July/August time there was a very deffinate routine to my life;
Mum would go away to see Alan (my step dad - though they weren't married at the time) for weekends or sometimes whole weeks at a time and me and Lito were left to our own devices. I would work Saturday and Sunday mornings at the Angel and Lito was always waiting at home for me when I finished. Mum always made sure there was food in the house and in return I respected her rules and made sure the house wasn't a total mess all the time. Most afternoons would be spent with my best friends Tom, Chris, Rich and Paul around where we lived and we went nuts. Lots of filming of our jackass videos during that time, I can guartentee that happened.

It really was the best summer ever, freedom to do what I want, in love with the most amazing girl ever and great weather throughout - nothing ever put a downer on the situation and if I ever had the chance to go back and relive a period of my life I'd go there and just do it all over again. I wish I could speak to my 16 year old self and tell him to make the most of the situation, because he sure is going to miss it.

The thing that remains is, is it right for me to live in the past like this? I mean, okay it's good to remeniss about it every once in a while but I miss it so much, I've changed as a person and I know I'll never have that freedom ever again - kinda scary to be honest. I dunno, it's just a thought. Thanks for reading my rambles.

I guess one thing I've learnt while writing this is that I have the best Mum I could ever ask for, and I really don't appreciate her. Love you Mummy x

Monday, 2 June 2008


What's going on? Haven't heard from you guys in a while, it'd be nice to get some chatter going on! Hopefully shouldn't be too long before my midlands tour starts and I'll be visiting friends and family over a number of weeks.

Went to the park earlier, was really good to get out of the house for some fresh air. Took Paul with me, was cool to have a chat, and then we bumped into Dan and we sat with him for about an hour chilling out and talking nonsense - the best kind of chat there is.

The novel has slowed down quite a bit lately, but I'm gunna put my back into it tonight and get some really good stuff done, I'll put up a preview if I get enough done :)

Hope all is well!